That sucks.

I think I did something wrong. No no, Put it this way. I screwed up too much lately. Let me rephrase that. I have made the biggest mistake in my life. It is by far the most regrettable act I have ever done since my first day of aging. I may perhaps comfort myself by throwing excuse like ‘it is normal for someone to face that kind of problem. It is just something “forgivable.”’ But I know myself well enough that I hate these kinds of self-soothing excuses, accompanied by a perfect word in a pair of sarcastic quotation marks.

A couple of months ago, I read a book namely “One more day”, written by Mitch Albom. Don’t get me wrong here. My act has nothing to do with that book. I just want to talk about something from it. There is something intriguing asked on its first page or may be even on its cover, if I am not wrong. Since I posses that book no longer, there is a high uncertainty in my assurance. So, here it is:

“If you had a chance, just one chance, to go back and fix what you have done wrong in life, would you take it?”

It is a very generous and irresistible offer. Isn’t it? How many of people over 100 you think will simply say “Yes” to that question? Would it be 80 or 90? Make it even 95 or more than that. Every single one will take that kind of chance without hesitation. But I don't think I will. Let me clarify about my opinion. I am saying this not because I know for damn sure that no chance like this would be given in reality, in life, but because I think that those mistakes make us who we are today at best or at worst. Everything happens for a reason. Agree? ☺ Whatever doesn’t kill us simply make us stronger.

However, we love to talk about rewinding time. I bet everyone loves to do so although it is sadly out of our capability, especially when we lose someone we can’t replace or we did something wrong which we can’t make it up to. Sometimes, the consequences are just too much burden to bear with. It is like the world is on your shoulders. Everyone is leaning on you. Sometimes, it feels like the world is almost over when everything is fairly paid. Well, I guess the night is dark just before the dawn.

There is a sucker born every minute. Sadly, I am.

P.S. Merry Christmas Everyone! :)

Goodchild.